Monday, November 13, 2006

goddamned test

GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED! GODDAMNED PEEE PAPER FAILED!

Oh did I mention, goddamned PEEE paper failed too? I think I didn't.

Jesus, Mary and Joseph. It was everything gone wrong. Don't wanna talk about it. Mr Program Director for PEEE, you can take that paper and shove it up your ass. Only then will I tell you how many turns the coil around the electromagnet should have (hint: It's to do with how far up your ass I'll shove that paper).

Bert's been a hand in encouraging me to not look back. Those few sentences of his have at least given me back a modicum of faith in myself, and for that I'm deeply thankful to him. But for Pete's sake I don't want a modicum, least of all now. I want FULL confidence in myself. Back to my old self: confident, forward looking and optimistic (I could add hardworking in but I'd have to work on that). Now I think I'm just stuck in a funk. A blue funk.

KAI YI YOU THE MAN.
THINK LIKE A MAN.
TALK LIKE A MAN.
ACT LIKE A MAN.
BE THE MAN.

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