Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
What's going on?
What's going on today?
First I get the cold shoulder, then I'm ignored the entire day, and at the end of it all, I hear she's angry at two other guys.
I don't understand why.
Less than a day after I type that entry, her entire demeanour towards me changed drastically. And when I say drastically, I mean REALLY. It's like, all of a sudden, one day we're talking nonstop, and the next day, we're not even looking at each other.
What did I do? Swear to god, I honestly didn't do anything. I don't even remember saying anything bad to her. I even consciously steered clear of any subject or topic that would make her immediately sensitive to. I made sure that all I did, it wasn't to hurt her.
What could have changed her so?
Today was absolutely surreal. For the first time in my life, within 2 weeks of knowing her, she's pissed at me and two other guys. The other two, their reasons were probably more obvious than mine. But against me? I swear, I'm at my wits' end, trying to guess what I did or said wrong. I really have absolutely no idea what I did. I asked her the previous day whether she was angry at me and she replied in a friendly manner that she was not. I believed her.
But today? Who can explain that?
I'm really perplexed. No words can describe the extreme feeling of bewilderment I'm feeling now. And it just got worse. I was talking to her on MSN when I asked her "any customers today?", and I got these exact words in return: "I'm busy now, talk to you another time". I swear, that almost came as a slap in the face.
Dear Diary, I really do not know what is going on. What is happening? Why the sudden change? What did I say? Somebody, please, I beg of you, please help me. I don't want to be enemies with anyone whom I've barely known for 3 weeks and who's going to be my classmate for the next 3 years. I'm not kidding when I say this thing is driving me to tears if I don't understand what's going on soon.
I really don't know what's going on. Somebody, please, help me.
First I get the cold shoulder, then I'm ignored the entire day, and at the end of it all, I hear she's angry at two other guys.
I don't understand why.
Less than a day after I type that entry, her entire demeanour towards me changed drastically. And when I say drastically, I mean REALLY. It's like, all of a sudden, one day we're talking nonstop, and the next day, we're not even looking at each other.
What did I do? Swear to god, I honestly didn't do anything. I don't even remember saying anything bad to her. I even consciously steered clear of any subject or topic that would make her immediately sensitive to. I made sure that all I did, it wasn't to hurt her.
What could have changed her so?
Today was absolutely surreal. For the first time in my life, within 2 weeks of knowing her, she's pissed at me and two other guys. The other two, their reasons were probably more obvious than mine. But against me? I swear, I'm at my wits' end, trying to guess what I did or said wrong. I really have absolutely no idea what I did. I asked her the previous day whether she was angry at me and she replied in a friendly manner that she was not. I believed her.
But today? Who can explain that?
I'm really perplexed. No words can describe the extreme feeling of bewilderment I'm feeling now. And it just got worse. I was talking to her on MSN when I asked her "any customers today?", and I got these exact words in return: "I'm busy now, talk to you another time". I swear, that almost came as a slap in the face.
Dear Diary, I really do not know what is going on. What is happening? Why the sudden change? What did I say? Somebody, please, I beg of you, please help me. I don't want to be enemies with anyone whom I've barely known for 3 weeks and who's going to be my classmate for the next 3 years. I'm not kidding when I say this thing is driving me to tears if I don't understand what's going on soon.
I really don't know what's going on. Somebody, please, help me.
Monday, May 01, 2006
bleah
General Elections are around the corner, people. Did you vote for your favourite cartoon character already? I hope you did! Cos they're the ones who're going to lead you for the next 5 years!
Right. Vote for the Workers' Party. Refreshing change from the PAP, I'm sure you'll agree.
Let's just hope I don't get killed for these 2 sentences. They're mild. I'm not anti-gahmen, but sometimes when we're really completely absolutely pissed, we bunch our fists, and through clenched teeth scream why in the hell did we elect this bunch of jokers to lead us.
Don't worry. Within the next 3 years I'm sure many of you will agree on this point.
Guess my previous post stirred up a hornet's nest somewhere. So many people have been asking me about it. Well, guess I'll say a little more, but that's about it. I hate to divulge secrets.
Have you ever met someone, who is so energetic, so emotional, so radiantly beautiful? Corny, but true. Those were my thoughts when I first encountered her. She exudes a radiance, touching those around her. Not to mention that she looks like a work of art. Around 5 ft 2, she cuts a slim figure. She's a sight for giddy eyes. A perpetually cheery person. I wouldn't describe her as gentle, but she's sensitive to others around her. Quick in her thinking and mannerisms, but slow to anger. An unjaded individual.
Did I mention I like her?
We've known each other for nary a month, but during that time, it seems like I had known her forever. Gossips exchanged, views shared, laughter revelled in, sorrows felt, it is wonderful to be with her. It is refreshing. She is everything I could ever like. An exhilarating rush of adrenaline precedes any conversation I have with her. A peaceful time is natural when with her. Frugal in her spending, but unfailingly generous with her emotions for those around her, she makes others feel loved.
I love the way she smiles. I like the way she talks passionately about her liking for anything Japanese. She makes me smile when she does that. She's one of the few people who so deeply love something they make the people around them also want to love it as much as she does. She's sincere about it. She's unpretentious. She tells me things about her family, things that you and I would not believe happens in these times. But she carries on. She doesn't stop. She is resilient. A respectable individual.
But I don't want to rush anything. It is not right for me to do so. I don't even know her that well. It's been only 2 weeks. How do you expect to know anyone well enough in a fortnight? That's Mission Impossible. Yes, I would want to love her, but only at an appropriate time. I wish not to intrude onto her privacy, privacy that she may so desire for herself because of circumstance.
Till then, I will wait
Right. Vote for the Workers' Party. Refreshing change from the PAP, I'm sure you'll agree.
Let's just hope I don't get killed for these 2 sentences. They're mild. I'm not anti-gahmen, but sometimes when we're really completely absolutely pissed, we bunch our fists, and through clenched teeth scream why in the hell did we elect this bunch of jokers to lead us.
Don't worry. Within the next 3 years I'm sure many of you will agree on this point.
Guess my previous post stirred up a hornet's nest somewhere. So many people have been asking me about it. Well, guess I'll say a little more, but that's about it. I hate to divulge secrets.
Have you ever met someone, who is so energetic, so emotional, so radiantly beautiful? Corny, but true. Those were my thoughts when I first encountered her. She exudes a radiance, touching those around her. Not to mention that she looks like a work of art. Around 5 ft 2, she cuts a slim figure. She's a sight for giddy eyes. A perpetually cheery person. I wouldn't describe her as gentle, but she's sensitive to others around her. Quick in her thinking and mannerisms, but slow to anger. An unjaded individual.
Did I mention I like her?
We've known each other for nary a month, but during that time, it seems like I had known her forever. Gossips exchanged, views shared, laughter revelled in, sorrows felt, it is wonderful to be with her. It is refreshing. She is everything I could ever like. An exhilarating rush of adrenaline precedes any conversation I have with her. A peaceful time is natural when with her. Frugal in her spending, but unfailingly generous with her emotions for those around her, she makes others feel loved.
I love the way she smiles. I like the way she talks passionately about her liking for anything Japanese. She makes me smile when she does that. She's one of the few people who so deeply love something they make the people around them also want to love it as much as she does. She's sincere about it. She's unpretentious. She tells me things about her family, things that you and I would not believe happens in these times. But she carries on. She doesn't stop. She is resilient. A respectable individual.
But I don't want to rush anything. It is not right for me to do so. I don't even know her that well. It's been only 2 weeks. How do you expect to know anyone well enough in a fortnight? That's Mission Impossible. Yes, I would want to love her, but only at an appropriate time. I wish not to intrude onto her privacy, privacy that she may so desire for herself because of circumstance.
Till then, I will wait
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