Wednesday, January 30, 2008

New email address

This is gonna sound stupid but I'm not releasing my new email address here in case some wacko with underwear on his head decides to spam me with pictures of himself. My new email will be my MSN nick, so you guys who know me and have my MSN, take note. It's not going to be my permanent email, so do keep directing all your email to the one you all currently know, the Gmail one. It's a funny one, the new one ;)

Der Last Paper

Der finalisten papier ist hier und das ist der dreaded maths papier. Ich bin sehr stressed und ich will now studiere sehr sehr late into ze night to make sure I passieren ze papier if not ich will repeat ze module.

After ze papier ist finito I will be as frei as ein bird. I will not celebratorien because ich bin sehr cautious about ze results. Aber oh! What joy after ze paper is done! Zere will come ze holidaytagen und ze freitime which I cravesenheimer.

Ja, danke.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

201st post!

I've just realised - from looking at my Nuffnang visitorship status - that I've been getting a lot less numbers on Monday than on other days. I think perhaps it's because of the Monday blues, eh? Compared with say, Thursday and Friday, these days are a near-twofold-increase over the first day of the week. I theorize that it could be due to the heavy workload and that...LAZINESS that everyone seems to have. Now I know when to post to have the highest readership - rubs hands. And oh yeah there actually are people who stumble upon my blog from their Yahoo or Google searches or whatever. And you should see the keywords they use. Hilarious.

Monday is really a fun day. No really.

So the exams are coming along with mixed feelings. As I mentioned before I'm still concerned about my first paper. Audrey's telling me not to worry about it and I really and trying my best, but there's a lingering fear of the unknown, of what's going to happen. I better not let that fear conquer me.

Went out to Best's school carnival on Saturday. Wanted to ask a couple of friends along but they were all busy. That woman had to ask her friend Ruben to pick me from Yishun Station when I clearly know my way to the school (note to self: know, or think you know?). Anyway, I spent some time there, getting acquainted and reacquainted with some of her friends. I think one of her girlfriends is hot but I can't say here. Stayed just a tick over 40 minutes before I headed off cos I didn't want to be a hindrance to her. She had her own duties to take care of. Don't worry, that lunch will come :)

One week left, two more papers to go. Thanks Lina for that midweek boost of confidence, wishing me luck :) to be honest I'm really scared for tomorrow's Physics paper. There are like a hundred fucking formulas to remember and I don't think I can remember them all. I think I must _______.

Going for a run helps me to increase brain cell count and stimulate determination. Sounds like a Chinese translation, ha ha. Anyway, I'm going.

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Thursday, January 24, 2008

200th post!

Olé! This post marks 200 non-stop, fun-filled, deeply-insightful-but-at-times-emo-and-damn-depressing-not-to-mention-completely-incomprehensible posts! Although of course you may have noticed that in order to get 200 posts I have typed many completely rubbish ones in between sensible entries. How lucky I am to have survived to this day.

Better not count my chickens too fast yes.

Anyway the post below was typed in a fit of madness. Somehow the idea of an LOTR confrontation appealed to me at that point. Yeah the horsemen are coming. I've killed two already and the other two are still circling for the kill. Need to hit the pause button.




Yeah she's cute, that one. Not entirely unattractive and safe to say pretty smart too.
Why not?

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

So it begins

So this is how it begins.

I face down the four faceless riders with my own trusted brethren. My breathing is calm, my horse unperturbed, my senses - heightened like never before. I feel the weight of that sword clutched in my hand as though it were an extension of me all my life. Thunder rumbles in the distance, warning all who hear it to take shelter from the inevitable deluge that will follow. I look up, and the sky has turned a deathly pallor of gray, a foreign hue to this land. A certain peace has befallen me, like a blanket of peace smothering the glowing embers of anxiety. I feel no fear and I feel no regret. This is how it begins, this is how it will end.

The four horsemen, the Evil Ones, the Dark Knights, the angelli rebelli, continue to bear down on us. Their bodies are shrouded in long flowing cloaks, their faces unseen. I can hear their mares now - snorting viciously, black as sin. Even though we have the hill, I can feel the thunder of their hooves as their soulless riders - with venom in their every movement - flash the reins and hone in on us with unbridled fury. In a distant corner of my mind I wonder sagely whether I should first pierce the demon riding, or wait patiently till his mare is upon me and then slash the beast's head off with one single, calculated movement. The sword in my hands twitches ever so slightly. This is how it begins, this is how it will end.

The moment of inevitability is here. Upon this hill we shall fight as countless others have done before - our blood, the life upon which the grass of our land grows, shall flow. Our lives - dedicated to the defense of this place we call home. One call, one bugle, and my men swing their swords high in unison. Let this day be remembered for the glory the martyrs have brought to it! Let this day be remembered for the fight that we brought to the Darkness! Let this day be remembered for time immemorial!

This is how it begins, and this is how it shall end.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Don't need no...

I don't need a steenkin _________.


I can do without that steenkin __________.


That steenkin _________ isn't really necessary.


Who needs a steenkin ________ when you've got a _________.


Because of that steenkin _____________ I feel bad now.


Thanks for the advice you steenkin _________ but I don't need it.


Thanks for nothing you steenkin _________.


I don't conform to your steenkin ________.


We don't need no steenkin _________.


See if you guys can add any more :)

What on Earth am I here for

Sigh. Looking at this makes me wonder what the hell I am doing in Aerospace Electronics. Audrey was like "ya Kai, why don't you change." Nah I'm quite fine here, I'm not going to change, but it makes me kind of wish I was born a coupla years later.

The Singapore Government is mobilising some S$76 million to attract and train about 2,000 precision engineers over the next few years. Students from NYP will be the FIRST to benefit from this latest initiative.

As a Digital & Precision Engineering student at NYP, you can now apply for the prestigious National Precision Engineering Scholarship (NPES).

The National Precision Engineering Scholarship (NPES) is awarded by the Singapore Economic Development Board (EDB) and SPRING Singapore for studies in the Diploma in Digital & Precision Engineering at Nanyang Polytechnic (NYP).

"Precision Engineering is in...F1 cars, iPods, mobile phones, fighter jets and more! Be a part of Singapore's new breed of technologists. Choose Nanyang Polytechnic's new Digital & Precision Engineering Diploma."

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Snakes on a Plane!

Lol I just couldn't resist posting this.

Ton of snakes seized on plane


HANOI, Vietnam (AP) -- Authorities in Vietnam seized more than a ton of snakes that were smuggled in on an airplane from Thailand, officials said Friday.

Thousands of the nonvenomous rat snakes were shipped as cargo in 60 boxes on a Vietnam Airlines flight from Bangkok to Hanoi's Noi Bai airport Thursday, said airline spokesman Trinh Ngoc Thanh.

Thanh said the shipment had been declared as live fish.

Many of the snakes, which were surrounded by plastic filled with ice water, have died, said Nguyen Ba Oanh, director of the Wild Animal Rescue Center near Hanoi where the snakes were taken.

The reptiles each weighed between 200 grams (0.44 pounds) to 3 kilograms (6.6 pounds). The official Vietnam News Agency reported that the snakes, which are protected animals, may have been headed to another country.

(Article courtesy of cnn.com)

Friday, January 18, 2008

Soldiers of the Wasteland

As the song title goes I'm quite happy to have been introduced to DragonForce. Yes that's another power metal band with enough twin guitar solos and riffs to make Jimi Hendrix look like Bill Gates playing Guitar Hero. Interestingly DF add in computer-game sounds into their music. Take for example their hit song Through the Fire and Flames - it's got a hint of Pac-Man dee-dee-do-dee-do right before the twin guitar solo, courtesy again of Herman Li and Sam Totman. That's their signature addition. And oh by the way it could be me, but their choruses always sound so cheerful and melodic. That's right, cheerful. From a power metal band. Strange innit? You should see how Herman Li looks like man - go Wiki him. Doesn't he look strange or what.

Second post in a day, guess I'm bored out of my pores. I need to go study later, haven't completed my chapter of CA which I wanted to. Thank goodness I'm not rostered for work tonight or I'll never get any studying done. It's strange now how I really do want to study unlike some other people who can't answer simple questions during an interview. Yes you I'm talking about you, you half-wit. Think I didn't overhear the lecturer asking you questions and you just gaping there like a goldfish out of water? Obviously you didn't do even an infinitesimal bit of the project and probably left the equations to some poor soul to do. Seriously now, I haven't any idea what anyone sees in you. Well, those bothered enough to talk to you anyway. I'm thoroughly disgusted with your wanton and insouciant ways. You screwed that test up and instead of blaming yourself, you took it out on a friend of yours who at least was contrite enough to offer some conciliatory words. But oh no, you told him so eloquently to fuck off and not talk to you again. Sounds exactly what you did to me too, as I so fondly recall. It's a miracle that's he's still talking to you now. If I were him, I'd seriously tell you to do something to yourself which requires some actual physical, if not voluntary, penetrative action to your physiological being.


In other words, go fuck yourself.


Cripes

Aiya...it's the exam period now.

I really really can't do anything else other than study but I fear I offend them. What's more I haven't gone to plenty of sessions previously because of my project meetings. Man.

And I don't want to go to work either because I have to study. But again I don't wanna say no cos I need the money (ok, WANT) and I don't wanna seem like a slacker so I'm letting myself go this Sunday. I'll probably get some flak from the folks but I'm gonna study before that so I think it's ok. Man.


What's one gotta do?

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Biding my time

I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, the dreams in which I'm dying were the best I've ever had.

You must listen to Gary Jules' Mad World. I swear it's the saddest song ever. PM me for it eh.

Sorry for the lack of updates my dear faithful. Haven't been touching my blog for that period, plus my exams are just around the corner, which really sucks. Not to say that I've forgotten you all :)

Went out with best the other day and bumped into Bert at Far East Plaza, who was out with his mum. No Gilbert don't feel ashamed, it's okay. And by the way I think my friend likes you. No no really. You'll only know if you read this post, by which time I think you might be too late. Dear me.

Exams are around the corner, as I mentioned earlier. Let's list out the seven levels of Hell:

ACS
CA
AMMP
maths

So happened that my font became smaller when I typed the word Maths. No matter how much I tried to make it larger, it wouldn't.

Oh yes and I'm gonna type out my wishlist for when my paycheck comes in. First time I've ever typed a wishlist out but since these are actually NECESSITIES, no harm done
la.

1. Gears of War for PC
2. 1GB RAM array for my dimwitted laptop
3. A proper going-out jacket
4. New bag (Audrey I think I want that Crumpler. LET'S GO BUY.)
5. New shirts

Notice that all bar the first two are actually necessities. Oh well, you gotta have hope, man.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

What I should be thinking about now

Right now, I should be thinking how to complete this CA project of mine. But obviously I'm not because you're reading this post. That's procrastination for you.

Last night's work was nothing short of ordinary bar a few incidences that sparked up the otherwise gloomy atmosphere a wee bit. Not least of all was the woman who lay on the road outside the store for close to an hour and who scared a bunch of ah bengs - yeah that's right - into running into the shop thinking she was some kind of ghost.

"Eh wo men nah umbrella lai poke ta yi sia"
"wah chee bye shi gui lor!"
"mei you la shi pontianak lai de...chee bye"
"eh wo men chu qu la"
"bu yao la later chee bye ta wake up ken wo men..si liao"
"wah lau chee bye lor"
"eh wo men mai condom la"
"chee bye la ni"

Mind you I've never heard so much eloquence at 2am in the morning.

Just between you and I, I think I ate so much I nearly ate my day's salary's worth in just one night. Two cups of soup, few hundred sweets (more like 20 la, just exaggerating), 10 cups of Coke and/or Sprite and/or iced lemon tea pretty much kept me company from 11pm to 7am the next day. You gotta survive man, you gotta survive.

Besides that it was a constant struggle to keep my eyes open till 0630 when I was all primed and ready for shift change. Pretty smooth transition, except for the Hemale calling at 6am and shocking the hell out of me. "Just wanted to check how you were doing" (in sweet saccharine voice. "How you know it was me?" -rolls eyes DUH OF COURSE LA WHO ELSE HAS THAT VOICE.









How long before I get in?
Before it starts, before I begin?
How long before you decide?
Before I know what it feels like?
Where To, where do I go?
If you never try, then you'll never know.
How long do I have to climb,
Up on the side of this mountain of mine?




I don't know how long I have to climb. A constant reminder of my uphill battle.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Radical rethinking

For those of you who've realised that the post below didn't mean a single thing to you, I can only apologize. That was written at 2am in the morning with my head lolling from side to side because I was so sleepy, I was dozing sitting up. Hopefully it provides more answers than it does questions.

Anyway, it's back to the world of cars! I haven't been posting many car updates recently which has caused me concern too. Nevertheless, I shall put my best foot forward
for an attempt now at a review.


Have a good long look at the car on the right. A very good long look. Spot anything? Or rather, spot anything missing? That's right, there's no badge. No matter how hard you rub your eyes in, there isn't a single badge on the front of this car. And if you think about it, it's not very strange.

The car that you see here is the new Hyundai Genesis, due to be launched at the Detroit Motor Show next week and see its inception into the US market some time shortly thereafter. I never thought I would say this about a Hyundai but I am going to anyway: it looks great. I mean, just look at it. The last time the Koreans attempted to design a luxury car they ended up with a blob called the Hyundai Sonata and that's b
eing used as taxis in China. Talk about exclusivity.


At first glance it looks pretty much like a menage of a few major luxury brands' styling cues. The front fascia is very Lexus-esque, bonnet lines, wing mirrors and rear three-quarter view not unlike BMW's. Despite the subtle espionage going on here, I'd say the Genesis has a lot going for it. What's under the skin looks set to give some car manufacturers plenty of sleepless nights, courtesy of the Korean underdog (no pun intended. At all.). The base version gets a 3.3L V6 and the top-tier a 4.6L V8 pushing out a head-imploding 368bhp. A V8! From a Hyundai! Both engine choices drive the rear wheels through a six-speed ZF automatic and 60mph is destroyed in under 6 seconds. I say destroyed because anything that moves this quick this side of a BMW M-Sport saloon must surely be powered by lightning. The Koreans are on to something, surely.

We've no idea whether or not this car will reach Singapore. If it does, it'll be right in contention with its intended rivals - the Mercedes-Benz E-class, Audi's A8 and the granddad of sports saloons, the BMW 5-series, anything from a 525i and up. Surely this will be a small victory in Hyundai's quest for world domination for none of their current offerings even register on the Germans' radar. But looking at all the kit that's being offered with the Genesis, its engine and really quite handsome styling, I'd say that they better pull their socks up.

The Koreans are coming.


(All pictures courtesy of topgear.com)

Yep..kinda. Yep.

I dunno. This whole thing's been weighing down on me ever since it, well, started. And from day one it's received nothing but bad press. I've tried hard, honestly, but I can't see the fruits of my labor. My actions have been obscured by my own uncertainty and no matter how hard I try I keep feeling that I've hit a brick wall in the middle of nowhere - and am stuck here till I find someone else to bail me out.

Maybe it's time to stop chasing ghosts. Maybe it's time to retract into my shell again as I always used to. Maybe it's time I stop lying to myself and saying that everything will be rosy.






But Man could not have discovered the oceans if he did not have the courage to lose sight of land, now did he?

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Fix you

Do take a moment to read these lyrics. At first glance they don't seem to make much sense for a love song, but study them closer and you realize it's not about love, it's about encouragement and how you support someone. Gosh. What won't I do for someone to see me through this way :)

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Thoughts

Some circuits just don't want to be solved.

Just finalized the complete circuit with Shafiq today. Not till late in the day did we realise that all our resistor values were damn near the wrongest values ever, so we had to change all of them. Turns out our attenuation value wasn't where we wanted it to be: it was too high. We were supposed to get 3dB attenuation or lower but ended up getting something like 8dB. In short, the circuit would never be accepted so we had to agak-agak until we got the right values. What a relief when we did.



Potato chips are my new best friend.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Facebook

After days, months, years of prompting by Jerold Tan, I've finally joined Facebook. You can search for me by my name.


Facebook me!

Just a wave...

Just saying bye to my friend Patrick brought back so many fond memories that I have had accumulated over the years. It's interesting to see how that despite all that had gone on, us 4 still remain the best of friends. We were over at his house for a sort of farewell party, a parting gift from the civilised world, a transition from civilian to a National Serviceman. Or more poignantly, a period which will see him gone from our scopes for 3 months. For that, I have only good wishes and prayers for him that he may come back safe and sound in one piece. With proper hair. Very soon the other 2 will be going into the hallowed land of the botak too and I will be the sole surviving member of the BBP to still be unmolested by the agonies of National Service. Oh well, my time will come, definitely.

Had a hectic day today. Morning saw me go to Eunice's place to help her with her project - something I didn't do terribly good at. Hope she can cope with that. Then it was off to Sim Lim Tower to get wires for my CA project then to meet Joyce. I ended up meeting her late so we didn't get any lunch done. That's cool, always another time :) Then it was off to meet my pals for Patrick's farewell dinner. Don't feel like typing it here (sorry guys :( I'm actually down with flu now, don't wanna spend too much time on blogging now) but safe to say we had fun, together with some ex-Cat High guys there.

Was always fun, always will be.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

2007

2007.

A tumultuous year gone by.

Many incidences have happened, some best forgotten.

2007 started as a year with me hoping for many things to happen. I did do my best to achieve them but as fate would have it, they didn't happen. I wished some of them would happen but then again they didn't. And that brings me to the topic of resolutions.

I'd like to know exactly how many people follow through on their New Year resolutions. It's customary - compulsory, even - for some people to list out a number of resolutions and then attempt to follow up on them. I say attempt because frankly speaking I don't think many people make good on their promises for the New Year. Procrastination? Lack of faith? Unwillingness? All three? Thing is, none of us have managed to follow up on all that we've promised to no one in particular. And that brings me to the most likely reason why we fail to follow up on our resolutions: we don't tell it to anyone.

It's been known that telling people our goals is one of the factors that determines how aggressive you pursue that aim. If we tell someone what we are aiming for, it somehow makes it more poignant and makes us more aware that that goal exists because we created it for a reason and that we should achieve it. By doing that, the onus is put on us to attain that goal. If we fail, it might feel that we've let that person down so we do our best not to let that happen. In contrast if we don't tell at lease someone our resolutions, then it'd be easy for that person to forget about achieving that aim due to perhaps sheer laziness or a particular inability to do that. There's no accountability, see.

So here I will tell you, my dear reader, my New Year resolutions. If you happen to be part of the BBP or my best, make sure something happens to me if I don't achieve at least half of my resolutions. In no particular order, they are:

1. Study harder than 2007
2. Score higher in all modules than 2007
3. Grow and increase in wisdom (stop laughing, it's true)
4. Make a difference in people's lives
5. Make a difference in my friends' lives
6. Make a difference in my own life
7. Solidify existing friendships and make new friends
8. ____________________________________ and ________

I know you guys are supposed to know all of my resolutions but my secretive side has kicked in and prevented me from writing number 8. Honest it's nothing nefarious but rather something, well, private :P. I leave it up to you all to guess it, but you'll get nothing from me.

Happy 2008!