thinking of...

After 5 long years, is this how you want to end it - again? After that previous episode, I don't think anything you do now will faze me. I am tired. I am beyond the point of caring anymore. I'm a very magnanimous person, but sometimes people like you drive me to the brink of insanity. I don't know what I have done wrong. All this time I have been doing what I know best: to be as good a friend as anyone would like to have. But time and again you have proved that I am not up to par with your standards. I won't be as handsome or as "tuned-in" or as rich or be blessed with all-roundedness as other guys you know. I will never possess such qualities. God made me as I am, and I accept that with no equivocations. You have never liked me as I am. Not a single time did I feel that I was someone special to you. You however have been somewhat of an enigma to me: a person whom I enjoy being with, yet hold that enjoyment with a pint of distant regard. You have been, and always will, be someone unique to me in my journey through life.


I shall not drag this final write-up any longer, because there is nothing more to say. You have done this to me once and I don't think you'll hesitate to do it to me again. In this respect, I will never be able to understand you. I'll never be able to fathom the things you do to those who truly want to help you and understand you. People who want to be heard by you but you're too wrapped up in your own small world to care. People who actually do give a damn whether you're hurting or rejoicing.

People who care.

And so on this note, I shall end. I wish not to part with any animosity between us. The time for that has come and gone. Should Lady Luck smile upon us, we might meet again in the distant future. If we do not, then you have my blessings for a sound and peaceful life in the years to come. Live long and prosper, my dear.

Goodbye.


Wong Kai Yi
2345
8th January 2007